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The Whole Point

on 15 December, 2015

At the beginning of the month, I wanted to inspire myself to write regularly in anticipation of picking up the blog when I go into my surgeries and recovery and eventually use this as a springboard into this new part of my life.

I’ve had ebbs and flows with this blog. At one time, I had more than thousands of readers a day. But it was a dark and troubled time and while I made those entries private and tried to move in a more positive direction, the readership dropped off. And I had my breaks in writing, which caused my readers to drop off even more. It had really waned in the preceding months, but there always seemed to be someone who stopped by to read.

The point of the daily photographs was twofold: one – and most importantly – to get me back into the habit of writing daily (or almost daily) and two, to get my readership rebuilt. Little did I anticipate that within days of posting photos of the center of my universe, not only did I not rebuild or add readers, I actually lost the few tag-alongs that I still had. For three days in a row, I had ZERO blog hits.

That can be a bit of a drag, psychologically and emotionally, for a blogger. Of course my instinct was to say ‘fuck it‘ and stop writing. And I did. But I am back. Screw the rest of December’s photos, I am going to start writing about what’s going on and what’s coming up with the surgeries.

First off, I am going to start with my biggest concern: pain.

If you know me or anything about me, you know I am no stranger to pain. I believe that a bout of bacterial meningitis in my early twenties left me with chronic headaches and debilitating migraines. Now, some thirty odd years later, I have a scheme that allows me to pretty much function but it requires some large and standard doses of pain meds. And now that I have this to a point I hesitatingly refer to as controlled, I am fearful of messing with it. And the upcoming surgeries will come with an abundance of pain, which I need to figure out how to deal with. Without screwing up what’s taken years to get figured out.

So, here is the basis of where I will start writing again. Perhaps it will be enough to get you to come back? And maybe one more photo of the true center or my life and you won’t ever click this link again. And maybe I won’t care.

I guess we’ll see…

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